It's been a long time since we chatted, but these googly-eyed girls have had a way of keeping us busy, or more like buried. I will be the first to admit that having a new 13 year old toddler and an 11 year old 7 year old has not been easy. There have been many days that I thought I'm not going to make it, with no real definition of what I was trying to make it to - their adulthood, first day of school, the next day, hour or minute. It all seemed impossible. There have been times when I said to Maryn, "Don't make me look at one more stupid thing! I can't look at one more stupid thing because someone else is making me look at stupid things, and I just can't do it anymore!!"
So now you're waiting for me to say "but now..." but there isn't a but. School started, and it saved me. We reached a milestone. I made it to August 22. And, now we go from here. Our new normal is a work in progress. It's getting better, and I feel like I can breathe.
